Finding out...

I really want to know what we're going to be having regardless of the outcome of our second opinion, everyone at work keeps asking if we will find out or not, but not many people know of all the stuff that's going on. And how do you tell people that you only really associate with during work hours something so heartwrenching? I guess my biggest question here is, is it wrong to want to know what we're having at this point? Or is it ok to know? Am I being selfish?